What was then, I see, is no longer my reality

Sometimes, at times, I will open my eyes and see. Reality is not all that it may seem to me. With each passing day that continues to go on by, more and more I am left to see, the beauty that is all around me. With darkness still lingering from the past, full of saddened memories of what was then, my perceived reality. It is realized by me, that through the darkness that I had perceived to be my set reality; that there was a blockage of my mind. Fit to only perceive, that the darkness that I felt inside of me, was to be the set fate of all that I was yet to find, and all that reality was ever going to give to me. Silly me, now I see, this set fate of my reality to be, was not such a thing. While mistakes and past memories may still be felt, I no longer believe, that what was then my past, is now the set fate for all of my days. My mistakes may be always here so that they will not define me, but refine me.

"All the stolen voices, will one day be returned."
                                                                             -U2

Sometimes it is hard to love ones self to the extent that you are willing to forgive and learn from your own past mistakes. Seeing positivity through less than positive experiences takes work. Staring it straight in the face takes guts. Exposing yourself to the truth and stepping up to take accountability, well thats plain scary. But loving yourself from the mistakes? What? Now that is unheard of...but why? To own up and take the results is hard but ignoring only does more damage, in final, resulting in an even larger problem. So do everyone a favor and forgive yourself, learn and go forward because, after all it is all the much better.

Tell me.... What exactly is normal?

To envy that which one does not have is to wish upon a star in vain.
To take oneself and put into action something new, is all but the idea to obtain something greater than what one had before. You are the Law in which Newton found. Put into action anything and it will proceed to go. Less it be stopped or disrupted by an outside force. Chose your path. Some are designed with many different disturbances. Some seem to be smooth, but have you seen from the beginning the course which was taken? For don't be mistaken, the law also states that with every new move has, as every new choice, an equal outcome. Now imagine this, A life rolling in consistent motion, its course altered by every decision, whether made by ones self or made by another, we all cary bruises and scares from the journey. We all correspond don't you see? Who are we to say how many obstacles were faced for another to find that smooth path that you see right in front of your face?  Oh be careful what you envy, be wary for that of which you wish. For life's true meanings are not to be dismissed.

Understanding happiness

Finding happiness at times can be difficult, for most on a daily, hourly basis.
I find that the things that we do throughout our day, may be compared to transactions, because in all reality, that is what our doings are.
Observe what it is that is being given to the day.
Our tendencies for most as I have observed, is to become distracted.
What is it that is overtaking our time? What is it that we are exchanging? Look deeper and ask, what am I gaining? At times maybe the earnings are not significant, but given day after day, the extent of outcomes to our choices are more clearly seen.
Being careful to what it is, and how it is that we give is important, for what is given, is eventually received.

Once upon a time...

Opening  your eyes and wondering, how did I get here? What happened?
Once upon a time you thought you knew what you were doing.
But now, you are faced with so many different questions.
Left with the hollowness of the realization, you struggle to hold on.
But don't give up.